God is doing something in me that I can't quite explain. There is comfort in the fact that he is actually moving in my life, but there is also an anxious wonder of what in the world is actually going on.
One thing I am starting to see is that I think I'm maybe becoming a little bit like my mother. This is a beautiful and wonderful thing by the way. I'm no where close, but I think that my prayer to be a woman of faith like her is starting to manifest itself in my life. My momma is a woman who is constantly after the heart of God. She is faithful to Him. So faithful. Every morning she dedicates time aside for her and Jesus. She reads her Bible in a booth at Panera Bread every morning. She prays God's Word and pours her heart's desire to Jesus every day. She prays for me. She prays for my siblings. She prays for so many people and for so many different things. I can bet she's even prayed for you. Yes, you.
I want to be a woman of prayer like my mom. But in the back of my mind at times I have struggled (and still do) with actually believing that God could and would answer my prayers. I have had difficulty believing that my prayers can make a difference. But I believe God is taking me on a new journey...and I believe that this journey is going to strengthen my faith in a way that I have never known or experienced.
I know that you're probably like, "what is she trying to say here?"
In all honesty, I don't really know. But I am at a point in my life where I am asking God to do great and mighty things, and I am ready and willing to believe that God is going to do great things in lives of certain people who don't know Him and need Him desperately. I have it stuck in my head and heart that here I am, here we are, worshiping and talking to a God who made manna fall from the sky to feed his people, who made the sun stand still so a battle could be won, who preserved the lives of 3 men who were supposed to burn to death in a fiery furnace; a God who raised people from the dead, and healed the blind and lame. Here we are, talking to a God who holds all the power in the world to do any and all that we ask...but we fail to remember and recognize his ability to do so. I fail to ask and believe in the God of power. I am good at praying and believing in the God of love, comfort, patience, peace, grace, and mercy. For some reason, I've got that down...or so it seems. Of course God is all these things at all times, but I haven't been recognizing this pretty big aspect of who He is - the God of power...Almighty Father...Omnipotent One.
And so I go from here...with an expectant heart for the power of Jesus...and He will be glorified.
Jesus, I'm ready...
But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. James 1:6 (NIV)
...Such people should not expect to receive anything from the Lord..... James 1:7 (NLT)
