Monday, October 31, 2011

Community

*I wrote this a while ago, but never finished it. Just found it in my drafts and thought I'd go ahead and post it.


Yesterday, as I was walking back to work from my lunch break, I ended up saying hello to about 15 people that were passing by. (I think a class had just gotten out, cause people were all over the place).

The only reason I mention this is because it felt really good to have that treasured feeling of belonging. I know that Kyle and I have been at Asbury for 2 years now...but it just really hit me when I found myself recognizing the faces of so many people that make Asbury what it is - a true community.

I love my job, mainly because of the people I get to see and interact with everyday, including my co-workers! I also love detailed work - especially when my boss gives me data-entry projects! haha.

I am so thankful for this place, and it is going to be tremendously hard to leave in May. I don't even like thinking about it. I am scared to leave a job I love so much. I am scared to uproot and start all over again. Even though the plan is to move back home where our families are (and don't get me wrong, we are SO excited about that)...it's still really hard and scary to leave a place that has become a sweet home to us. It is hard to leave something I've found I'm really good at. It is really hard to think about having to find community again...I'm honestly not sure a community like Asbury can be found elsewhere. We've been spoiled.

So why don't you just stay, you ask? Well, something my sweet and wise husband has helped me see is that - for us as a husband and wife - we did not come here to Wilmore to stay and just be comfortable. (Please know I'm not suggesting that staying in Wilmore beyond seminary is a bad thing!) I tend to long for comfort in every situation I am in. I am the personality that plays it safe...although I must say marrying a good and adventurous man like Kyle has helped change some of that in me. With him, I've learned to "live a little" and for that I am grateful. As of right now, we know we're not called to stay at Asbury beyond this Spring...and while that saddens my heart, I know we must leave.

I honestly don't know what our future holds...but I'm learning that often times periods of not knowing are just simply a part of God's will...so that we will learn to trust Him along the journey.

So I will cherish the time that we have left, the community that we are a part of, the deep and lasting friendships that we have made...and I will look forward to what He has in store for us beyond Asbury Seminary.



In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps. Proverbs 16:9

1 comment:

Stephanie said...

I haven't to second my husband. And add, that this post made my heart happy and sad at the same time. But mostly happy. We love you both very much.